I woke up today…
One of my dogs was licking my face.
I would’ve slept longer.
The truth is I have days that my bed is calling my name FAR more than the sun
There are days that I want to hide away.
Days that I say to myself “I hope I don’t run into anyone I know”.
Days that I cry myself to sleep
Days that I have to remind myself of the bigger picture. Even though I sometimes question what that bigger picture is.
Sometimes this World seems too dark.
Sometimes people are far too insensitive.
Or maybe it’s me?
Maybe I’m just too sensitive?
Maybe I shouldn’t care?
Maybe I should turn my heart to stone instead of glass.
Glass breaks far too easily!
The stone seems to be much more resilient
The stone seems to work well for others
Today I woke up
I stepped out of the haze!
The dark cloud that had followed me for months
I looked under my bed, it wasn’t there.
I walked outside expecting it to follow me…
It left me alone.
I thought about the cloud and realized it’s been gone for over a week now.
Possibly two weeks!
Then I felt confused.
If the dark cloud of smoke has finally lifted, who will I be without it?
Without the anger?
Without the rage?
Without the sadness?
Without the focus on unanswered questions?
Maybe I’ll be me again.
The me I remember.
The me before the darkness
Before the lies
The me that goes to the farmers market
The me that smiles from ear to ear
The me that lights up this world like the brightest star ⭐️ of the zodiac!
The me my family refers to as “honey baby”
The me that others count on to guide them.
The me my friends look forward to seeing.
The me I lost but now have found again.
Today wasn’t dark.
Today was light again! And through the horizon of smoke filled mirrors and rose colored glasses that I’ve now tucked away in a box, I was reminded that the brightest of all lights comes from a burning bridge!
❤️️❤️️❤️️ I survived! So will you! Love yourself!