Merry Christmas!
For much of 2017 I walked around saying “it’s been the worst year of my life”. I now know that it was a year of lessons to guide me onto my spiritual path. When clarity is kept hidden in darkness, it can feel like the loneliest place in ones mind. For the later half of this year clarity was purposely kept from me. I had no choice than to go within. The unknown dark night of the soul went on from June until November. It was heaviest from August on. This was a period of months that I did not leave my home outside of walking my dogs, going to the grocery or the gym.
I allowed many things to slip away from me. My family and yoga practice being the two most important. I refused to take on new clients and even canceled a fully booked retreat.
Throughout this time animal symbolism became of great importance in my life! An owl giving birth on my fence told me of secrets being hidden. A flock of birds all landing on the hood of my car one afternoon, refusing to take off. The birds were giving me a sign to take flight from this darkness.
I found friendships in the most unlikely places. A woman here on FB that literally kept me from slipping into the cracks. I’m forever grateful to her. ️Another woman who works at my gym that constantly fed me the reality of my situation to keep me from returning. Men who were born under the sign of Scorpio seemed to show up for me in ways that I couldn’t explain! Scorpio people show up in our lives when something needs to end!
My intuition reached an all time high! I began to see through people in the most auspicious yet loving way. NO ONE could lie to me….no one!
I lost twenty pounds off my already in shape body! Gone were the days of stuffing down my feelings! I realized the home I live in was not the home for me! I belong where the action is! I began to desire community!
I finally woke up to knowing how I deserve to be treated in life! I saw patterns that may have been adopted of accepting behavior that did not serve me! As a woman, or as a human being! I accepted the fact that abuse shows up in many forms and that verbal abuse, manipulation and sneaky behavior to harm others would never be tolerated.
I ended a karmic cycle that I will never return to!
Thank you to my two sisters who helped me when I needed you! Thank you to my beautiful mother, you never wavered in your advice for a year! Thank you to Stephanie, Marisa, Teresa, Lonnie, Daniel {for that talk} & my three Scorpios!
I am free and freedom is a blissful place to be!
I love each and every one of you and only want the best for you!
Andrea
