Just because I love you today
Doesn’t mean I will love you tomorrow
The way I feel for you will change
Just like the way you loved me changed
I will always love you
I just may not “love” you
This doesn’t mean I still don’t need you
Your voice
Your touch
Your early morning call to see if I’m ok
Don’t be angry with me
Despondent
Harsh with your words
Don’t shut me out
Go away
Abandon me
If I love you today
I will love you tomorrow
I just may not be in love with you
And this is ok
It’s to be understood
It’s to be embraced
Spoken about
Speaking is how you fix problems
Nipping them in the bud
Please don’t run away
If I say I love you
But don’t want to make love to you
This doesn’t mean I want you to disappear
Going away forever
Leaving me won’t fix the problem
Abandoning what we have…had…once were
This won’t make things better
When your best friend comes to visit
How do you feel when she leaves?
Do you miss her?
Her laugh
Her smile
her hair tickling your shoulder when you embrace
Her morning tonics that make your brain work better
Do you miss the way your body fit perfectly into yours when you would sleep at night
Do you miss the way she would try to hold your hand when you were driving
You always pushed her hand away
But she tried every time
Didn’t she?
So why abandon her
Your best friend
She still loves you
She may not be in love with you
It has nothing to do with you
Your looks
Your bank account
Your status
I think she may have gotten tired of not feeling
Being aloud to feel
Or feeling as though she had to constantly try so hard to make you feel a certain way
She’s still your friend tho
The woman who kisses in public
Rubs your curly hair while you drive
Made you 10,999 omega balanced salads
So don’t purposely try to hurt her
She has scars all over from this battle
From head to toe
She just doesn’t love you the way she used to
Because loving someone requires balance
Giving and receiving
No dear ….no….we aren’t speaking of currency
I know it’s your favorite topic
Try to pay attention here
We are speaking of a balance of love
Giving and receiving of affection
Of time
Of heart felt conversation and connection
Connection far deeper than the ocean
I know you see everything as an investment
I’m sorry you feel that this investment was a waste
I assure you it was not
I learned so much
What I will and will not allow
You learned lessons too
I just don’t love you the same way I used to
Because you stopped investing your love into me
It hurt at first
I’m better now
I just don’t love you that way anymore
You see it’s not the way you speak to a woman
It’s not what you do for her
It’s the way you make her feel
I Love you ~ your best friend
