I’ve been doing a lot of introspection. A lot of cleansing. A lot of releasing and a plethora of holding space for myself and others. Through the detoxification process comes an elevated vibration. Having an elevated vibration brings in all walks of life. It’s the energy they’re attracted to. I’ve never been the type of person that would allow all types of energy into my space. I’ve learned over the years to be selective. And although my social media may be big, my inner circle is small. I’ve learned to study my energy when a person is in my space. It’s not about “do they like me”, it’s about “how do I FEEL when I am with said person or people. I do this because I value myself. I value my time, my space, my emotions, my heart and my body. I’ll admit I’ve not been the best at setting boundaries in the past. I certainly do today.
Recently I had an experience that felt all too familiar. I felt someones energy return to my space. It was in a very indirect almost obscure manner. The BEAUTIFUL lesson that followed was a bit of a surprise. Instead of wanting more confusion, more insanity, more nonsense, I noticed myself instantly beginning to cocoon myself, pulling away not only from this person but from the rest of the world. Instead of wanting answers or feeling confused I wanted to run. I did run. I find directness, decisiveness and kindness to be attractive traits. Everyone who enters into my space has at one time carried in them this archetype. An archetype that leaves you feeling better than before they came. I was beginning to notice that a part of me who desired to make others feel better than before they came was slowly beginning to return after a long period of healing.
I think most of us are alert these days for indirect, hit or miss, in and out behavior. Because lets be honest, if someone leaves us to fill in the blanks…there really aren’t any blanks to fill in. And the more we give energy to that type of behavior, the more we lose our self respect while elevating another.
The biggest lesson I’ve learned from this is that by turning away from this type of behavior in others, it helps protect me and those I love. Because so many of us tend to repeat things that are done to us on innocent people who truly do care, are kind and want to be there with us to enjoy the happy and sometimes not so happy times.
I’m beginning to see that there are many things in life that I forgot I loved. Simple things. Things that allow me to enjoy life without feeling that I need to dim my light to make others feel a certain way. It’s a re-building of my self – esteem. A part of myself that I had lost.
I also want to say that if anyone who reads this feels pain in any way, I am sorry. Whether it was caused by me or another. Everyone should feel loved, accepted and cherished for who they are. Both our shadow and our light needs to be present in order to truly embrace this life. When we hide our shadow, we cause much pain to those who love us the most. Those who would have at one point always had our back.
I hope this helped you in some way. Sending you SO MUCH LOVE!
Don’t forget to drink your juice:)
Andrea